I woke up this morning in a bad mood.
Bad.
What do you do with something like that? When nothing can wipe the scowl from your face? Normally I say my morning prayers and read the scriptures and have some breakfast, maybe listen to some soft, soothing songs as I fix my hair and face for the day.
But this morning. This morning was a beast of a different nature.
Nothing. Worked.
And I even volunteered in the freaking Temple last night. And usually that's a great mood uplifter and perspective changer and mellows me out for about a week. I probably shouldn't call it the freaking Temple. The Temple. The Oakland Temple of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Amen.
I blame the cold I've been trying to kick for over a week. Except it may not be a cold. It may be yet another sinus infection. I've had at least four over the past couple of years. And they weren't just sinus infections, they were due to the stupid tooth I've now had two root canals on.
So I'm worried, and in a bad mood. Because my sinuses won't clear up, a tooth hurts (the one next to the root-canaled tooth) and I don't want another root canal.
You'd think I was a dental-hygiene challenged hillbilly. But no. I use a Sonicare. I floss, sometimes 3x a day. I use ACT Flouride mouthwash and Listerine. This.Should.Not.Be.Happening.
-Two days ago I nearly lost five days worth of work due to a dumb error.
-This morning I was alerted that someone unauthorized had my credit card and was making fraudulent purchases (Um, I do have to say that Chase is amazing. They alerted me about the fraud and had a new credit card on the way, overnight, within five minutes. Legit.)
-Work is beastly lately. People who don't normally put unnecessary pressure on me areriding my... making me extremely frustrated.
These things on top of the whole past three months being insane due to the redone root canal, followed by 12-week premature babies for my sister (which rocked the foundation of our corner of the world, and we are still making regular pilgrimages to visit the girl baby, Avery, who is still in the hospital.).
And the whole thing is kind of blowing my mind. The colossal, cosmic picture kind of whole thing, as in, starting around my birthday. I mean, I've written previously about days that are a comedic opera of errors, they're funny and ridiculous, like the time I scratched my eye and melted wax all over my microwave, etc... But, if you know that I've been excited to be 32 my whole life, my entire life I've felt 32 was going to be some kind of extra special, and so far it's been extra... something, alright!
And the only thing that makes me feel any better right now is knowing that if there are so very, very many things going wonky and weird right now, I must be REALLY on the right track to doing something important. And that important something is preparing to move overseas. It's big. Ya know?
Isn't that how it goes?
I'll just press forward, I guess.
*Ouch*Sniff*
I hope your day is going awesomely. That would make one of us.
I'm going to go eat some chocolate for lunch. Maybe that will do the trick. Yah!
That is all.
PS, this post smacks of self pity, and really, I'm not feeling pitiful, I promise, just kind of overwhelmed and like the universe is temporarily converging on me. To make up for it, please enjoy this photo of nephewQ, it's all kinds of amazing:
Bad.
What do you do with something like that? When nothing can wipe the scowl from your face? Normally I say my morning prayers and read the scriptures and have some breakfast, maybe listen to some soft, soothing songs as I fix my hair and face for the day.
But this morning. This morning was a beast of a different nature.
Nothing. Worked.
And I even volunteered in the freaking Temple last night. And usually that's a great mood uplifter and perspective changer and mellows me out for about a week. I probably shouldn't call it the freaking Temple. The Temple. The Oakland Temple of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Amen.
Photo from: http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/c/c4/Oakland_Mormon_Temple.jpg
I blame the cold I've been trying to kick for over a week. Except it may not be a cold. It may be yet another sinus infection. I've had at least four over the past couple of years. And they weren't just sinus infections, they were due to the stupid tooth I've now had two root canals on.
So I'm worried, and in a bad mood. Because my sinuses won't clear up, a tooth hurts (the one next to the root-canaled tooth) and I don't want another root canal.
You'd think I was a dental-hygiene challenged hillbilly. But no. I use a Sonicare. I floss, sometimes 3x a day. I use ACT Flouride mouthwash and Listerine. This.Should.Not.Be.Happening.
-Two days ago I nearly lost five days worth of work due to a dumb error.
-This morning I was alerted that someone unauthorized had my credit card and was making fraudulent purchases (Um, I do have to say that Chase is amazing. They alerted me about the fraud and had a new credit card on the way, overnight, within five minutes. Legit.)
-Work is beastly lately. People who don't normally put unnecessary pressure on me are
These things on top of the whole past three months being insane due to the redone root canal, followed by 12-week premature babies for my sister (which rocked the foundation of our corner of the world, and we are still making regular pilgrimages to visit the girl baby, Avery, who is still in the hospital.).
And the whole thing is kind of blowing my mind. The colossal, cosmic picture kind of whole thing, as in, starting around my birthday. I mean, I've written previously about days that are a comedic opera of errors, they're funny and ridiculous, like the time I scratched my eye and melted wax all over my microwave, etc... But, if you know that I've been excited to be 32 my whole life, my entire life I've felt 32 was going to be some kind of extra special, and so far it's been extra... something, alright!
And the only thing that makes me feel any better right now is knowing that if there are so very, very many things going wonky and weird right now, I must be REALLY on the right track to doing something important. And that important something is preparing to move overseas. It's big. Ya know?
Isn't that how it goes?
I'll just press forward, I guess.
*Ouch*Sniff*
I hope your day is going awesomely. That would make one of us.
I'm going to go eat some chocolate for lunch. Maybe that will do the trick. Yah!
That is all.
PS, this post smacks of self pity, and really, I'm not feeling pitiful, I promise, just kind of overwhelmed and like the universe is temporarily converging on me. To make up for it, please enjoy this photo of nephewQ, it's all kinds of amazing:
ouch. this is not good. you need to go back to bed and try again tomorrow. hate these times.
ReplyDeleteThat photo is still the best.
ReplyDeleteI just realized I don't have it hanging on our walls. I shall print it off extra large an hang it in his room right now! Mwohahahahah!